I have no idea how I survived this year, but I did it. I’m so thankful that I did but I’m not going to live under any pretense that it was easy or fun, in fact it was probably the hardest year of my life. I thought it would be a little easier this time around after practically everyone dying in the last few years but truth is, it was so much harder. After spending so long living my life so as to make him proud of me, to make him love me enough, I’m not even sure how to live my life anymore - or why I’m doing it. But with the help of some amazing friends I think I just might make it through - with much more wisdom on my side.